During prize presentation on Speech Day, looking at Shaeron walking up with her RI uniform, just really makes me want to punch myself haha. She surprised and impressed me.. I feel a little guilty too, I was supposed to sit beside her during Speech Day, not that I could have talked a lot with her (maybe?), at least made her feel that she had someone from her class around her. :x

That made me think a lot, not that I don't every time haha. She probably wasn't extremely smart; smart, yes. I don't know her much, though I'd reckon my intelligence is at least on par with hers. What's the big difference between her and me?

Diligence. That is what I lack, motivation and discipline to be diligent, that I had not. In netball Shaeron and all the others in our class possessed this, that was why they spent lots of time training and yet could do so well.

I am still in the midst of improving myself and training myself, but right now I am reading "7 habits of highly effective teenagers" to gain some inspiration of how I can step out of my old shell of self-deception and arrogance and etc.

Well the first I learnt is you should put your life and move forward with principles instead of parents (during primary school) and material goods (secondary, which explains the iPhone and laptop). Thinking back of Shaeron walking up the stage (twice), I'd knew what my principle could be: To be better.

If I say so myself, that looks like a pretty good principle to base my life on, haha. I need to throw away my self-depreciating jokes too, and work on other ones.

Speaking of jokes, JC life has been amazingly boring and dull. There is nothing to make a joke out of during tutorials, you couldn't make jokes in lectures and you spoke homework and politics with classmates. Absolutely amazing.

PW, meanwhile, is like a dead weight just to drag you down with stress and lack of sleep. I hardly learn anything from it other than communication skills, which could always be learnt in the future...

Sorry to throw a whole bunch of my thoughts in one blog post, but I have took some time to collect myself and pull myself back up from the dead person I was a few weeks ago. Today, I just started to recover a bit.

More stuff? You got it.

There was a college fair last Wednesday, where a lot of pretty and hot ladies came up to promote their agencies. Just joking, normal boring people, giving out pamphlets for possible careers I could take. I took business administration, statistics and overseas studies (US). Deciding which career I am going to take is hard, really hard. I don't know my talent yet, could someone tell me?

I could probably do well in Geography or psychology, but my parents keep telling me there's no future(pay) for those. I could go to statistics. I'm not sure, a writer? I know my languages aren't up to par, may be I can make up to it with my enthusiasm.

Anyway, thanks for reading bits and pieces of my thoughts. :D